Having complete faith in Christ is not always easy. We say that we have faith and that we believe that God exists and that he watches over us. BUT would you put yourself voluntarily in the situation where you absolutely had to depend on God for your next meal? Would you give your last cash to charity to dying children and then leave it in God's hands to ensure that you have enough for your own life?  What if it happens out of no choice of your own and you found yourself in a situation where you have no money to pay your bills or buy your next meal? Would trust God by doing your best and leaving the rest to Him or would you worry and blame God for your situation angrily?

I was in a situation recently where our money ran so low that we didn't even have enough to buy gas and electricity. We managed to borrow some money which would last us another few days, after which we would face the same desperate situation once again. This had happened before when I would just run to my family for money. But I had done this for long enough but this time it was different. My husband Kingsley and I were in a more difficult situation, financially, than we ever were before yet even though we were facing this situation and were extremely stressed as we also had a little boy to take care of we put our faith in God. Kingsley always had this type of faith alive in Him but when the tough got going I would get upset and almost expect God to ignore our situation as though He wasn't really a LIVING God but an existing one.  This time it was different because I maintained my faith and knew that God was hearing our prayers and working on them. We prayed and fasted together several times in the day and only spoke words of faith with our lips. 

The money that we had received to help us out was now running low and we needed nappies for Zane. Kingsley went to buy nappies but he didn't have money, he went out with a debit card and credit card to see whether the ATM would give him something by mistake as he knew that the account was completely empty. He tried the card in the ATM and it disn't work, so he tried it a second time and again the screen read "insufficient funds". Desperate because we needed the nappies, he tried using the card in the shop to pay for the nappies but it declined the card once again. Feeling defeated but still hanging onto the one thing he had at this point, his faith he prayed for a break. As a last attempt before giving up, Kingsley decided to try the card in the ATM machine one more time. Then for no explained reason the money came he needed to buy the nappies came out and he went back to the shop to but them. When he shared the story with me we thanked God and were amazed and felt so blessed that God was looking after us so closely.

Still having no money left we continued praying and an unexpected phonecall kept meon endge. The bank was trying to contact me. I was afraid to answer and ignored the call twice as I didn't feel that I could stand hearing the bank ask me about the overdraft in my credit card account and current account. Then my husband advised me to answer the next call just to get it over and done with. The person from the bank was very nice but proceeded to ask me a lot of questions about my job, household income and outgoings and why the accounts kept on going into overdraft on a monthly basis and so on. I felt so deflated but felt good that I was dealing with it and couldn't wait for the conversation to end, when she suddenly asks me whether the 1500 pounds deposit into the account was a one off deposit. I asked her to repeat because I was sure that I had misunderstood her. But no I had understood perfectly well. The money from HMRC had been deposited into our account. We were expecting some money from them, but not for a few months and we were only expecting 200 or 300 pounds not 1500. I almost started screaming on the phone with joy and relief, but I managed to keep my cool until I ended the conversation. I then ran downstairs and informed my stressed husband about the great news. We were both shocked and overjoyed. I was shaking and crying and dancing and excited all at once. We had just gone from being desperate and stressed to being comfortable and able to sort some things out in our life that we thought that we would not manage to sort out for a long time.

Thanks to God's intervention we were able to pay back some debt in our accounts, stock up food and gas and electricity, stock up on baby essentials, buy sofas (as up to then we had no seating at all in the house and spent most of the day sitting on the floor) and a coffee table. We were also able to buy a bed for the second bedroom, which allowed my family to be comfortable when they came over in christmas, and a wardroble to put our clothes as most of them were on the floor on a towel in large piles as we had nowhere to store them. It basically allowed us to stand up on our own two feet again and relieved so much stress from us and we could not be thankful enough. Till this very day when I look back on this amazing miracle it just reminds me that I could trust God completely and that He really is a living God not as some people may think. He knows all that goes on and all He wants is your faith and trust and most importantly LOVE.